I have a new xanga guys...this one is full of my past...so yea..Merle666 add her she'll be up and running by tomorrow!!!

 

I LOVE YOU!!!

Just check out my Poem site...I posted a new one.....Yea I'm not in too much of a happy mood lately....
I wish everything was going better, but i know it wont happen. I wish I hadn't fucked up so badly. Lately I was happy, but it seems like everything is being taken away from me....The love of my life, my friends, my family, and i dunno maybe even myself. Right now i feel so dead it isn't even funny. I barely laugh anymore...I miss 2006! That was one of the best years ever....But now, this year is horrible so far. Yea it's only been two days, and it will hopefuly get better. But as far as I know...This is the way shit is gonna stay. I wish everyone was happy with what was going on, and understood what I did.....What I do isn't because I am trying to get people to hate me (though mostly everyone does) And that It's not for revenge....all the time. I just got his scent.....that beautiful smell....Ever since that day my jacket wont stop smelling like him.....and I like that. Well i'll write back later...since i've started back on the blogs....(My mom can't know about this...she'll read it like she read my journal


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